been a long time

Last entry was Christmas last year. This blog is difficult for many reasons. One is because much of my experience was during a time of women coming into their own sexually and in freedom from the constraints of societal expectations. Now I am a 60 yo women with a "respectable" career and life. I have two sons. One is married and has 3 children, the other is single without any children. I have not really changed inside, however. I control the outside to prevent embarassament for my older son and for my profession which has a great deal of prejudice from the start of a person's life to the end.

In order to not have this become a series of stories "sanitized" for public and differing family consumption - it also doesn't tell the real story of my experience. This is frustrating for me and in all the years I have thought about writing about it has been the sticking point. I was giving my younger son an example of how an experience relates to world view or universal view and he said "wow, I hope you write about that in your blog". I really can't. Many things are just too "far out" (to use a '60's term) to write about when it could be read by a grandchild or whatever. Not to mention my "potty mouth" as my brother refers to it. I have every letter I wrote to him while I was traveling. Every other word was f*cking far out and various other "colorful" terms that is and was the way I talk, except when I am talking to my older son (he never uses profanity) or at work when I am speaking in a professional capacity. So!!! what to do but make this another orphan blog or come to a happy medium. I looked at "my profile" just now. It doesn't really give much information, does it?